“Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!”
This is an incredible prayer – a dangerous prayer – a bold prayer – a humbling prayer.
It is incredibly brave and trusting to ask God to “search me.” This prayer demonstrates great trust in the LORD and faith in His grace. We all know our own sin and recognize that there is usually more that we haven’t even recognized yet, so to invite God – the perfect, holy one – into our mess is. . . .well, it’s incredible.
It is interesting to me that this prayer comes at the end of the passage. Has David recognized the incredible love of God as he penned the psalm and come to a place that he was able to pray it? It seems like this might be the case. As God reveals Himself to us, we are more readily able to seek more of Him and invite Him into the deeper recesses of our thoughts and moment by moment living.
When we recognize His efforts throughout our lives – in all that I do, my schedule, everywhere I go, in my mother’s womb, before time itself, etc. When we see His involvement, His love becomes undeniable. If He knows all this, and still loves me, then His love is overwhelming! It cannot be contained! And trusting Him to “search me” doesn’t seem quite as dangerous to pray anymore. In light of who He is – in light of His incredible love, David says “Test me and know my thoughts.”
Prayer: Lord, search me and know my heart. AMEN.